Monsters are real, and ghosts are too. And sometimes, they win.
We all have monsters. Everybody. If we recently visit weheartit, tumblr or other popular social media pages (for young people), then we probably have already read this lines:
So, is this adulthood? Ironic, isn’t it?
Anorexia, bulimia, binge, obesity, cutting, narcissism… There are several disorder, we call disorder, but what they really are DEMONS.
We all fear of something. We all hide something. And if we don’t be careful, our demon eats us alive. Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to the hell.
Sorry for being so rough, I wouldn’t be pessimist or negative. I want to find soulution and I belive in recovery!! Yes I did!!! And will kill all of this bullshit inside my mind.
Well, my story beginns is 2010, exactely 4 years ago. I managed to loose 15 kg-s. It was pretty strange. You know, in one hand I felt wounderful about myself. I looked into the mirror and a beautiful, thin, skinny girl looked back to me. It was everything for me. Really everything. On the other hand, I was terribly alone,loneley and depressed.
Imagine, that before my weight loss, I was just another fat girl from school. I hated myself. Any boy liked me and I was to shy to look at my crushes or everything. I tried to pick up pretty clothes, but almost nothing looked well on a fat body. My friends were all thin and all of them had boyfriends. They regulary went out but I didn’t dare. Because I felt ugly.
After that, I just can’t remember why, but I changed my mind, and decided to live a healthier lifestyle. To tell the truth, I wasn’t directly motivated by loosing weight. I just wanted to prove to myself and obviously guardian helped me.